i think im becoming lazy... i find myself excuses. am i becoming complaisant? detached? too self centred? am i giving up?...
what am i waiting for? why do i not feel more concerned? am i hardening or softening?

i dont know what it is that makes me feel empty. am i missing something? something doesnt feel real. sometimes i think it could very well stop/be stopped at anytime... will someone unmask me at some point?

i am not even feeling depressed.