'london: a life in maps' at the british library on saturday. ive always had a facility to stare at maps intently. also watched the nomi song.

starting to go back to the cinema a bit more, saw marie antoinette and the page turner recently. i liked marie antoinette. alien nation at the ica on saturday afternoon was really good. the ica is good.

je ne sais pas. ou est ma maison

'another pointless party
i really should be getting home
they say thats where the heart is
the taxi driver asks me
where i'd like to go
and suddenly im unsure
suddenly i just don't know
where do i call home'

neil hannon

i think im becoming lazy... i find myself excuses. am i becoming complaisant? detached? too self centred? am i giving up?...
what am i waiting for? why do i not feel more concerned? am i hardening or softening?

i dont know what it is that makes me feel empty. am i missing something? something doesnt feel real. sometimes i think it could very well stop/be stopped at anytime... will someone unmask me at some point?

i am not even feeling depressed.